dress ~ Dots
vest ~ thrifted
shoes ~ Kohls
necklace ~ F21
earrings ~ hand-me-downs
sunglasses ~ thrifted
oh my gosh you guys, eva started kindergarten yesterday. i now have two school-age kids – and i'm a mess. when henry started kindergarten, i expected to cry and i did, but i held myself together (for the most part). but there was something with eva that unhinged me. i am pretty sure it's because she is the baby. with henry, i could always tell myself, "well, there's eva and she's not in school yet..." i could hold on to the fact that at least one was still a little kid. and i know, i know that they technically, at seven and five, are still little kids. but to me, i see them starting school and i think to myself that it just seems like yesterday they were babies...and time flies by so quickly! i want them to still snuggle with me and not be embarrassed to hug me and come to me always when they get bumped and bruised. even when they are 30, i want them to crawl in my lap and snuggle with me. (ok, maybe that sounds weird, but i don't care.)
anyways, she paraded around on tuesday night, trying on outfit after outfit. she planned it all out and on wednesday morning, she asked if it was time to go to school at 6:15 am (school starts at 7:30). before anyone even woke up, i was
crying sobbing as i made their lunches, and when it came time to finally bring her to school, i had to leave my sunglasses on, even when we were in her classroom. i didn't want her to see me cry. i wanted it to be a happy day....and it was, but there was a little bittersweet mixed in.
so yes, now i am a mama to two kids in school. and they are excited. and they are in school together. i see years and years of big brother protecting and defending his little sister. and i see a few times where little sister will do the same for him. (watch out first girl who breaks his heart, eva will come after you!) and i see a mama who will cry every.single.year. and i see a papa who won't ever quite understand, but will hold me in his arms until i stop crying anyways.